Revision

I got a bunch of my other drawings from Life Drawing back. So I will upload those when I finally take a picture of them.

School is finally over. And taking 7 classes from 3 colleges was hectic. I will never try that again. lol. Barely made it this time. But I'm proud of myself for not dropping any of them. (As much as I wanted to) lol.

So I want to take a break this time and not go to summer school. Though I'm going to a career counselor tomorrow, and see what she says. Although it's kinda too late now since Summer semester starts next week, and I'm still burnt out from my 7 classes.

And I've decided to take a break from taking all those art classes, and just take General Ed stuff. I feel that way most likely because I'm kinda sick of doing art all the time. My 7 classes were all art related. And too much of something can turn ya green. That, and I think because of my problem with going to Ringling has kinda discouraged me to a point.

I haven't given up drawing, just laying off it a bit. And since I wasn't able to make a costume this year due to my underestimation of time and money, I will focus this year on school academics and costume development. Making costumes for AX is a big part of my life. A tradiation at this point. And I'm very disappointed for not being able to make the costume I wanted for this year.

So at the very least, I'm going to repair my Red Mage AF costume and construct a Sari Sumdac (transformers animated) costume. Sari has a very simple costume, so I really want to have that when I go for AX and Comic Con. My Red Mage is always a great costume to me.

I may have bitten off more than I can chew this time, but it truly was an experience though. And like I said before about the .hack//G.U. costume I made last year, "What doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger. And in this case, I believe we just leveled up atleast 2 skill points."



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Now playing: Tsuki No Le
via FoxyTunes

yarrr

Well, im particularly bummed. It seems after getting accepted to Ringling, I'd be happy and set. But alas, i am torn away from that goal. I guess, getting accepted or not, I was not meant for Ringling.

I haven't told them I'm not going yet. And I got a mail package from them. Its wonderful to feel like i finally belong to a college now. I just wanna hold on to that feeling as long as I can.

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Now playing: Yasushi Ishii - The World Without Logos
via FoxyTunes

zahhhh

Ringling (expensive, need more funds)
Laguna (maaaaaaybe, but housing expenses)
San Jose
San Francisco
UCLA (not enough animation? and fend for yourself attitude)
USC (too EXPENSIVE)

CSU Fullerton?
CSU Long Beach?

Oh, what the future holds for me?

Today's Life Drawing exercise!

So in my last entry, I said: ......well, I basically said I wouldn't be able to go to Ringling this year.

BUT, im happy to say that I WILL re-apply to Ringling AND other prospective colleges. Those schools will be - Laguna College of Art and Design, Calarts, UCLA, USC, San Francisco State University, and San Jose State University. I am trying to find a school in California that will definitely give me what I need to get into the animation industry AND provide good scholarships, since the lack of that is what caused me the problem I have now.

I look forward to this year, I'll do things I wasn't able to do and more. I especially look forward to doing commissions sometime this year. I will continue to research more about loans AND get some face-to-face help from school counselors. I plan to visit each school on my list and see what they have with my own eyes. That was one set back for Ringling; I didn't have the money to go visit, so I relied on phone calls and CA.org acquaintances for my questions. Which isn't a bad thing at all! But it would have helped my situation if I could've gone to the school and found out for myself.

I don't feel down anymore! I really like this decision, and I have no regrets. Whats one year to come between a productive extra year and an expensive Ringling tuition? I hope that made sense. It doesn't to me, but it SOUNDS right. lol! But yea, I get to enjoy taking a variety of classes again to round myself out, instead of going to Ringling and worrying about money. Plus, like I told myself, "If I was good enough to get into Ringling this time, I should really be able to do it again next time. I must have more faith in my skill. If I didn't have that faith, then I couldn't have possibly survived Ringling this year with that mindset!"

So that is my conclusion to this. 1 year to regroup and prepare myself for a lifetime career (and a 10-20 year debt, lol).

Have fun year 2012 @ Ringling! Work yer ass off, cuz once I get into the game, I plan to get the job yer aiming for!

Let's see what the future holds...

Cover Page sketches

Ok, so I may have some bad news too... I.. won't be going to Ringling anymore... Money concerns and all. I plan to continue learning at community college for one more year, and prepare for the Ringling tuition better. Tis a sad but hopeful thing. I may or may not elaborate more on this. I'll still be going to Sarasota before and during the orientation, but I won't be part of the festivities. I will most likely check out the campus since i'm there, and hopefully the won't mind me being around campus at that time.

Have fun class of 2012, hopefully 'seeya soon' class of 2013! heh.

Appropriation Assn.

Appropriated "I want you" poster of Uncle Sam, into this skull-headed embodiment of American's EXPENSIVE STUFF! In another words it's representing how there are soo many enticing things to buy like analog/digital cameras, ps3, games, digital screen frames, and more, BUT because of the little money [most/some] people have, to buy one of those things would mean we'd have to sacrafice something else. Like food or school supplies.

It's also how the govn't seemingly wants us to spend more and more for stuff like taxes and gassssssssssssssssssssss.

"I Want You (to BUY MORE!)"

Made outta bestbuy and circuit city ads. The Skull is actually covered by a plastic sheet to simulate a computer screen.

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BTW, I quote myself quoting somebody:

"You know how when you mention "Ringling" to somebody, they think of clowns and the such. We'll I thought this guy was gonna say that when he said, "Ringling sounds like a...." he paused and thought for a second, "...like a ding dong school."

Yep. How ignorant. *sigh* And this kid is from an "elite" school. I sorta expected more intelligence from him. But alas, the logical world still does not acknowledge the art world.

Sigh

I've been sighing all week, so i thought i'd emphasize it by titling this entry as such. And it's all because of the financial business. First of all, im not a very...financially informed person. I've never had to actually worry about financial things at all before. And it is not that I'm rich or anything near that, its because I've never been a financial burden before. When I was in Elementary school, my parents didn't really have to worry about paying because a friend of my parents was financially sponsoring me to go to school there. It was a private school. Then once the tuition was getting way too high, I went to public school. And I've been in public school ever since.

As for myself, I don't go shopping like some people. I don't go out and buy clothes or "outfits". I buy shoes once a year. I don't eat much. And whatever it was I wanted, I either waited till it was on clearance or found it at the swapmeet. My only costly aspect is the costume hobby I have. But even then, I spend it with the lunch money i've saved or not used in order to do this. Ofcourse, sometimes i have to rely on my parents for some things that I didn't have enough money for. Like my Transformers Obsession. But I've gotten over it (for now), lol.

So I really try not to be a costly child. When it comes to something like this now, I feel so horrible for putting my parents in this type of situation and I have no way to help. I dont have a job and my parents don't want me to have a job. Everything else is most likely pretty much up to me still.

I guess this is where I feel even worse. *insert sigh here* I haven't acquired any scholarships. Except for the one offered by Ringling. And I also got a call today from Laguna College. They told me that they raised my scholarship from 3500 to 5500. I felt so bad for telling them I won't be going. And I felt so many levels worse because i declined 5000 dollars. I feel like crying and going to sleep. But I'm cooler than that.

It's all up to me.. And I really don't mind just getting loans and being in debt. But I still feel like i have a duty to do something. Try more scholarship, get a job, get art commissions, not being such a loser. I almost feel bitter towards the Government for their ineffective FAFSA thing. I almost feel bitter towards people who don't deserve help from the govn't, but they get it. I almost feel bitter towards the corruption in the govn't and rich people. But I always keep in mind that there are people worse off. Like the lower to middle class white people. I almost rarely see any scholarships that are available for caucasian people, unless they are like super smart or have "connections".

I don't expect people to really empathize with my situation, since I know many people, who you could say is worse off, that work their butt off everyday by going to school & working, then get no help or parental kindness from their parents, and have to pay their own bills already. If they read this, they'd say "too bad, so sad". They'd say many things that aren't nice. And it'd make me wish they had a easier and happier life. Life isn't easy, i know my share of it, but if there were more sincere kindness in this world... Then again, what dimension did I crawl out of, huh? There is no such evidence of a world where a majority of the world's people are not dog eat dog.

Yey for going out of topic. I just need to get loans and scholarship.. I just wanna learn already.

wahhhh, work!

Ahhhhh!!! Placeholder for my work! lol! I've seriously got alot of drawings, but I haven't been taking pictures of them. :( I'll try to get pictures tomorrow. I need good lighting to take pictures, but I'm either working on a project at school or hiding in my dark room.

I hear Ringling is sending out letters now for the Animation/Game dept. But I'm really curious. I may end up calling tomorrow morning. lol.

Plus I've got a ripping head because of the hour we've lost thru daylight savings time and cuz I rushed to do an essay an hour before I left home. Which was 5 am. Which was actually 4 am if you didn't add the hour like we're suppose to. Rawr.

Rabanaffren!

I called to check to see if Laguna got all my application materials, and they did.

AND, the lady who I was talking with also decided to mention that I was ACCEPTED to their school. Ooooooomuhgud! Pretty cool, no? lol! It isn't my first choice, but it's nice to know that I'm IN at their school (WITH scholarship). Just the whole "you now have scholarship too" part makes me -not- believe that I got into their school, lol! I've NEVER gotten a scholarship. ANYWHERE. ANYHOW. So yea, wow. Im honored! It's still hard to believe that I was told I was accepted at their school... Mainly just cuz of the scholarship. XP It's all a lie, the cake is a lie! To mock me! hehe.

Still waiting calmly (and secretly axiously) for Ringling's response. Lots of things are going thru my mind. Oh well. These thoughts will just have to be silent until I get more info.

I was also wondering. When you go to LCAD's website, they don't talk much about their graduates. I was looking up Blogspot websites of LCAD students & alumni. Come to find out, THEY DO EXIST (the student's blogspots that is)! Not as much as Ringling or Calarts, but they're there. I wonder why doesn't LCAD's website mention those alumni.

If you go to LCAD or know somebody who does, I would like a opinion on that. lol.

So yea... Waaaaaiting, let's play the waaaaaaaaaaiting gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame.

Great News!

I finalized my schedule! And I was able to get classes that either made my schedule easier or replaced a class that I didn't really like for certain reasons.

So WOOHOO about that!

AND, Ringling finally got my last recommendation paper! THANK YOU! FINALLY! hehe.

Now just to wait for RCAD. And also send in my application for LCAD still. @.@ I have less than 1 week left now. Yarrrr.

Ok, so now a 180º turn...or a 360º

I went to Pasadena ever since I started college. But then I decided to go to ELAC full time (omfg I just now realize that I do a full time load & extra classes at other colleges). After taking 2 weeks worth of classes tho, which is really just two days of classes at ELAC, I came to feel that I wasn't really getting my money's worth. We were learning very slow since its a 1nce a week class & we were going even SLOWER cuz the teacher had to teach two dif. classes at the same time. More importantly, after taking today's Life Drawing class at Glendale, it made me realize that I should be taking classes that will really improve my skills. Learning animation right now is not neccessary. I will be taking animation for the next 4 years at a college that is really an ANIMATION school. So why spend $120 dollars for 2 animation classes thats not even very well developed, when I can take classes that will truly improve my drawing skills.

So here's the deal: I've dropped 2 ELAC classes, and I still have 2 there (animal drawing & comic book dev.) But NOW I'm taking classes at Pasadena, full time again, which consist of Figure Sculpture & Sculpture. I'm still on the pursuit of finding more classes to fulfill my full time status, so these are what I've got on mind, either: Ceramics, Anatomy emphasized Life Drawing, Sketching for Design, or Art History.

Man..that makes me tired just thinking about it.

I won't put up what my schedule will look like just yet, since...I don't wanna put all my eggs...before they hatch....or something like that...or is it "count my eggs"? But yea.. hehe. I find it amusing how I went from a very easy schedule to OMGUEZFUKINCRZY schedule.

And some really great news! I've take the precaution and initiative to ask 2 more people to write a recommendation for me. Cuz STATISTICALLY, ATLEAST ONE OF THEM WILL ACTUALLY MAKE IT TO RINGLING! rawr! So yea, hopefully, if things go well, I'll finally have a recommendation letter in their database by Thursday. If things go horribly obscene, then the letter will NOT make it on Thursday..... [insert horrid face here]

In any case, here's my pickles "properly" photgraphed:

Good News!

Well, I've got my laptop back again! So i'm back in business.

Called Ringling, finally got in touch with somebody, and my recommendation isn't there yet. BUT, the good news is that my college teacher sent them a email version too, so they've GOT to get that one.

And since I have my laptop now, I'll be able to burn my portfolio for Laguna college too.

I was also able to finish my final project for Rendering class. :D And my teacher liked it alot! So I'm happy. Here's a quick photo of it:


Lastly, tomorrow! Tomorrow starts a new semester officially! Going to my life drawing class tomorrow, so I really look forward to that.

And as a self note to myself, sorta: I feel as though I've made a mistake choosing ELAC as my full time college. The night classes don't really bug me, but the whole, '1 class per week' and 'poor teaching enviroment' kinda sets me off. Don't get me wrong, the teachers are very good and inspirational. But taking a class only once a week doesn't get me pumped, and the animation lab is a very sad sight. Only 3 pencil test machines, very very old, and one was broken (for a 20 avg. class). The teacher was given a 2 class at 1 time schedule. So while shes teaching us Background and Layout Art students, shes also teaching the Storyboarding class. Meaning neither class gets the teacher's full attention. Even she says it's hard for her to teach a class on two dif. subjects. And it's all that, not to mention the type of neighborhood its in, that discourages me a bit from complete excitement. BUT, I did make the choice of going there, albeit it was a sort of last minute choice, and it was the only college in the surrounding city area that had a near complete animation program.

So all I can do now is keep my head up and make the best of it.

And hopefully a good future will come!

Im freakin' out! ARRRRRRGH. So much for applying. ;o; Reccomendation hasn't arrived yet. *sighs*

Wot!?

Craziest shit ever! Class at ELAC started already! And I'm still in Winter Session at Pasadena! WTF. lol. I didn't know it started that early! Cuz Glendale and Pasadena starts 2 weeks from now! lawlz. I missed one class already. Sooooooo, i'm going to one class tomorrow. And then maybe skip my pasadena class for the animal drawing class. yarrr...what a mess. lol

Art Update!

My Pickle Color test!
Testing before starting on Final Project.

Life Drawings from Calarts Workshop.

And a fun drawing made while watching the cloudy skies.

---On the serious, more boring side, we found out that theres some strange bizness with my financial thing. Now I have to fill out this Petition for Withdrawal from a school I didn't attend. Rawr.

---On the more amusing side, my dad came in just now and handed me a Ringling Box. First thing I thought was, "Oh wow! They must've rejected my application that fast!" I was seriously looking for the, "Im sorry, try again next year." sticker. lol! It was just the catalogue. Oh well~

1 month later...

lol!

Couple of self portrait sketches:

(Hi, I'm Crimmy and I have a crooked smile addiction.)

I still haven't applied to any schools. lawlz. And I've already missed the CalArts and Ringling deadline. My next possible try is the school in Laguna. I can do it!

I'm planning to make my next semester of schooling intense!
Tentative Schedule:
I've been reading, "Illusion of Life", "Animator's Survival Kit", and "Perspective". And I'm currently taking Rendering at PCC. I plan to be ready for the portfolio process!

And I'll also be going to the Portfolio Day in Otis on Sunday. Sooooo, wish me luck! Or rather, wish me some talent!